So, I pretty much suck at this blog thing. I'm not going to give you excuses as to why I haven't written other than I honestly haven't known what to write about. I really thought I would be bursting at the seams this year with tons of stories and new things that I have learned. I have a few stories and I've learned a few things, but I just haven't written about them.

I think the first thing I've learned about myself this year is that I am rarely honest with myself. I tend to listen to what other people think I should do and run with that. Only if I think it's cool enough. I've also learned that this really isn't a great way to figure out what I should do with my life. Has it stopped me? I wish it had.

Expectations are another thing that I have taken some time to reflect on. I have a lot of them. And most of them aren't met. Why? Because I'm a perfectionist. Although you probably wouldn't guess it by looking at me. Or my room.

I've also learned that I do, in fact, get homesick. Don't get me wrong, I love traveling and adventures, but I had not experienced homesickness like I have this year. I love the people I have met here and I am very thankful for their presence in my life. I do not know what I would do with out them. Here comes the but. BUT, I feel like I'm missing out on a ton of stuff. I missed my parent's birthdays. My brother's birthday. I've missed babies being born, I'm going to miss Mother's day, graduations. I think you get the point. I'm missing a lot of important events in people's lives and I do not like not getting to participate. Is this selfish? Yes. Am I being completely honest with you and myself? Yes.

I guess the underlying message of this post is a prayer request. I need prayer. I know many of you are praying for me and I am thankful for your prayers. I guess this post could give you direction in how to pray for me.

Thank you for your prayers and support.

Honestly,

~jenny