My Life Is A Mess

I have a friend that says her life is a mess when her room needs picked up and cleaned. With packing and everything going on right now in my life, I find myself thinking "my life is a mess." I know that the mess I have created from packing will soon be put back, but there are other messes that I am not so sure of being put back in order. I also think about the messes I will come in contact with in the near future. Really all of our lives are a mess. The only way that our lives can be put back in order is through Christ. I am thankful that I can go to the Ultimate Cleaner and find restoration.

These past couple of weeks have been interesting. I have been able to spend a lot of intentional time with a lot of my friends. I wanted to tell as many people bye in-person as possible. By Sunday, I was pretty much an emotional wreck. I am not a big crier, but I found myself wanting to curl into the fetal position and bawl all day. I have to be honest and say, I am not looking forward to leaving the communities that I have been blessed to be apart of the last four years. I also have say that I am excited about the new communities I will become apart of this next year.

When I am faced with change I tend to become fearful of the future and with drawl into my shell. I know this is something that is not good for me to do. Living in fear of being hurt or vulnerable is no way to live my life. My friend Korey made a CD for me the other day and there is a song by The Almost called Amazing Because It Is. The song has original verses, but the chorus is Amazing Grace. I am telling you all this because the song talks about living in fear. The song goes on to talk about being addicted and needy. I am both of those things, but there is grace and acceptance in Christ. Jesus Cleans up the messes of our lives and I am so thankful for that.

Yes, I am scared about moving to a new city where I do not know very many people. Yes, I am sad to say goodbye to my awesome friends in Oklahoma, but I am ready to be cleaned up and to experience the cleaning process with my new friends in Chicago.

Here is a link to the song I wrote about: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yt6R78qXhd8. Check it out, it's good stuff.

Thanks for reading,

~jenny